Yesterday was one of those weird afternoons where you take a brief nap and, after waking, nothing seems quite right for an hour or so. The cobwebs seem too thick to push through and you\u2019re left feeling like you\u2019ve taken a bunch of cold medicine. As I was sitting there, trying to find solid ground again, I picked up my phone and began scrolling through Twitter, soon finding the news that Carrie Fisher had died. Suddenly I felt even more unsteady.<\/p>\n
I don\u2019t think Carrie Fisher was my first celebrity crush, but I do know I, like all the other boys my age at my school, was totally in love with her after seeing Star Wars<\/em>. I\u2019ve shared before how, the morning after I saw Star Wars<\/em> for the first time, I went outside and sat on our front step and just stared into the distance, still trying to make sense of what I had seen. A healthy portion of that was caused by Fisher\u2019s presence on the screen. I don\u2019t think any of us ever lost that love for 1977 Carrie. I admired the way she lived her life after getting past her addictions in the mid–80s. She was smart, funny, outspoken, courageous, and brutally honest about her many failures and battle with mental illness. I can\u2019t think of a better way to publicly live a flawed life.<\/p>\n On Christmas Day it was George Michael who died and sent a wave of shock through Gen X. I was never a huge Wham! fan, or George fan in general. But I did love a handful of his songs.[1]<\/a> I listened to the first half of Faith<\/em> yesterday. Those first four songs are an amazing reminder both of the times – when epic albums filled with massive hits were common – and Michael\u2019s talent. He also lived a flawed life. Like Fisher he battled the expectations of fame, and fought to hold onto his sanity and manage his career on his terms. Word has it he was very generous and shared his wealth with many organizations that helped others, often doing it with minimal or no publicity.<\/p>\n I wrote on Facebook yesterday that, now that our generation has reached middle age, the heroes of our youth are climbing into their old age years. And they seem to be slipping away with shocking frequency. As upsetting as their deaths are, they also make sense. Muhammad Ali was 74. David Bowie was 69. Fisher 60. Prince 57. Michael 53. While the last three were still fairly young, they\u2019re also into the years when the actuarial tables begin to catch up with them. Especially when they\u2019ve often lived rather hard lives thanks to the trappings of fame. That doesn\u2019t make these loses any easier.<\/p>\n I wrote in April that Prince\u2019s death was the first celebrity death that ever floored me. It still shocks me when I\u2019m walking through the grocery store and I hear \u201cRaspberry Beret,\u201d as I did last week, and I am reminded that he\u2019s gone. While not to the same extent as with Prince, I did have a few moments of genuine sadness yesterday after learning of Fisher\u2019s death. And I\u2019m beginning to dread learning who is next.<\/p>\n