Month: March 2020 (Page 2 of 3)

Covid Chronicles, 3/17

The strangeness continues.


My last trip to the gym was last Wednesday. Thursday and Friday I was too busy being glued to the TV to run across the street to get a workout in. By Saturday I thought it best to avoid the gym. You can see my gym’s parking lot from our house, and over the past five days I’ve watched the crowds there get smaller each day. I have a friend who is a workout fiend and I still saw her car over there yesterday.

Doesn’t matter anymore, as all gyms have closed down as of this morning. We have a bench, some weights, and a treadmill in the basement, so I can still do some modified workouts. I can’t run much anymore, though, so I fear not having access to the elliptical machines will mean some of the 10 pounds I’ve lost since Christmas will return.

I do most of my podcast listening at the gym, so I’ve fallen behind. It’s been very odd to listen to podcasts that were recorded last Monday and Tuesday, when the market was beginning to crater and everything else was still hypothetical. They are a reminder of how quickly events spiraled and how long a week can feel.


I’ve been listening to the new bulletins on the BBC World Service a lot. I enjoy their more neutral, relaxed approach to the news. The BBC is also good for getting a broader perspective, as they often place developments in Europe ahead of the latest US news.

Last night I was listening to a bulletin and L walked through the room, heard voices coming out of my iPad but saw a black screen, and gave me a strange look. When the news summary ended she asked, “How does that work?” I explained that it was a radio broadcast that I was streaming. “Oh, I thought the news was just on TV.”

My mind was blown.


As I shared yesterday, C had an ortho appointment. We drove up to the office, walked in, she went to the computer to check in and the ladies at the desk asked if they could help us. Which they never do. “Uh oh,” I thought.

I told them C had an appointment and they apologized and said they had cancelled all visits, I should have received a call. I didn’t remember my phone ringing but as we re-booked I checked. Nope, no call, no voice mails.

As we left we tried to pull up the Panera menu to place a carry-out order, but the site refused to load. In fact no website was working and my email wasn’t loading. I powered my phone off, let it sit for a moment, and powered back on. Once it came online up popped a voice mail the ortho office left an hour earlier. Crap.


It looks like all the Colorado resorts shut down for the season today, which should make it easier to get refunds for everything we reserved. In the grand scheme of things, that’s not all that important. But it is one less thing to stress about.


I think the girls are already bored. L knocked out almost all of her assignments for the week today. M is whining about not being able to see her friends. It has been hard not to share every new development with them. We try to be honest and help them to understand what is happening. But I am feeling bad when each day brings some new disappointment to share. Today I’m struggling with how to share the possibility that this may go on much longer than people are currently expecting. Wiping out spring break was disappointing enough. We have a very big trip scheduled for late July, and based on some charts I’m seeing, I’m starting to believe it is in real jeopardy. I don’t even want to mention that to the girls yet, but at some point we may have to share that possibility.

Weekend-ish Notes

My normal Monday posts are summaries of what happened over the weekend, mostly revolving around sports. So what to do when there were no new sports to watch?

I did watch some of (and recorded the entire) replay of the Kansas-Dayton game from last November. That was such a great game and it would have been fun if those teams had met again, either in Atlanta or on the road there, to see how they matched up with four months of growth. KU’s defense wasn’t nearly as good in November as it would be at the end of the season. Devon Dotson was a better player at the end of the season than the beginning, but the Dayton game was perhaps his finest game of the season. I know Dayton kept rolling but didn’t watch any of their games to know how they compared to their November selves. Alas…


No kid sports either, obviously. We were gearing up for spring sports. C and L were supposed to have their first track practices Friday and Sunday. L was supposed to get her soccer roster today. M was supposed to have tennis tryouts tonight. This was to be my final season running the kickball program. With the latest CDC recommendations that everything be shut down for at least eight weeks, I doubt we will have spring sports seasons.


Saturday we had several hours of heavy, wet snow. The ground was warm enough that the roads only got slushy by the ground was covered for several hours. Since it was the middle of March the girls had no interest in playing in it.


We let C have a friend sleep over last night. We figured this might be one of her last chances to do it. With S in healthcare I’m pretty sure we will be exposed at some point, so I’m less worried about someone else bringing Covid into our home than us giving it to a guest down the road.


Life goes on in some ways. C has an ortho appointment this morning. I got the confirmation text Saturday and haven’t received a cancellation call yet, so looks like it will proceed. She is sooo close to getting her braces off that I know she would be bummed if she missed an appointment. That could be her issue: today might be fine but as we get deeper into her final detail work and the eventual removal, those are the appointments that will be in the most jeopardy.

Our tradition is that we get her lunch somewhere after her ortho appointments before she returns to school. We’ve decided to cut out restaurants for the time being, but I’m debating whether it is safe to go ahead and get something today. The logic being, again, so long as it is carry out it will be safer today than two weeks from now. The CDC, etc have not said to avoid getting food outside the home, just to avoid sitting and dining. So I may gamble that it will all be fine.

Why China?

I thought this was a very informative video. I’ve heard many people, including some of our girls’ teachers, share explanations for why diseases often come from Asia that just seemed wrong. This explains why the jump from wildlife to humans so often takes place in Asia.

Covid Chronicles 3/15/20

Saturday M and I were scheduled to work at a local food pantry as part of her service hours commitment. Late last week I kept checking the pantry’s website and saw no changes in the schedule and did not receive a cancellation from the volunteer coordinator, so we got up early and headed down. When we volunteered there in December the streets around the pantry were completely filled with parked cars well before the pantry opened. Saturday the streets were empty.

When we checked in we were told that the pantry was closed, but we would be preparing boxes of food that would be distributed via a drive-through when the pantry reopened on Tuesday. We spent five hours doing exactly that.

Because of the change in schedule and mission, several of the pantry’s employees who don’t normally work in the distribution area were with us. For a long stretch I was between the president of the organization and the volunteer coordinator. They told me how they had to scramble beginning Thursday to completely revamp their mission. All the food pantries in the area had met on Wednesday to discuss how to manage keeping people safe while still getting food to folks who needed it. They agreed that every pantry that was able would move to a drive through method of distribution. This would keep people from congregating in the waiting area – there were often 100 people in the waiting room at any one time the last time we worked – while also avoiding direct contact between volunteers and clients. As most pantries rely heavily on families and students for their weekend volunteers, I think every organization wanted to do all they could to make it clear that those kids would be isolated from the pantry clients lest they lose their workforce.

There were still around 50 people working Saturday, which was great. We did a ton of work, packing dozens of pallets 8’ high with boxes of food. The staff members who joined us on the floor were super impressed at how much we got accomplished. With no idea what to expect, I think they were fearful A) people wouldn’t show up and B) we wouldn’t put them in a good position to begin distributing again on Tuesday. They seemed to be comfortable that with the work we did Saturday, and what could be added Monday, they would be in position to distribute when their doors opened again.

Anytime we go to a food pantry it is deeply humbling. Last December we had more than 500 people go through during our five hour shift. And that was just one of many pantries open in the city that day. To help during a moment of (so far) minor food crisis was even more humbling. We can complain about crowds and empty shelves at grocery stores, but those are minor annoyances. We still have access to fresh food and the ability to purchase it. I can’t imagine counting on food pantries to get through the week and seeing them close down because of the virus scare.

I had some reservations about going. Several times I wondered if we should cancel. My fear was that because of some of the rules that CHS sets up around service hours, if we didn’t go M would be screwed on her freshman year requirements and affect her GPA in the process. When they told us we would not actually be serving people directly, that made me feel better.

But last night I still wondered if it was the correct decision. The experts are coming out more forcefully for shutting down all but essential services and having everyone hole up at home. Are M or I carry Covid–19 and spread it to the people we worked with, some of whom were older and not in great health? Did someone else there carry the virus and pass it to us? Was it dumb to put an academic requirement above other considerations? Might we have been able to get a waiver for those hours given what is going on? Hell, might CHS scrap the requirements for this year should the school shutdown and isolation recommendations stretch deeper into the spring than currently expected?

I’m hopeful we dodged a bullet and didn’t do more harm than good. We had planned on trying to knock out some more service hours during spring break. Now I think there is no way we will be doing that and will either scramble to get her final hours once things return to normal, or count on the school adjusting the hours needed for this year.

Ah, spring break. We officially cancelled our flights Saturday. We decided it was too risky for us all, S’ employer is highly encouraging all docs to stay put, and it’s looking more and more like we will have domestic travel restrictions soon. We are waiting as long as possible to cancel everything else, not in hopes we can salvage the trip but in hopes the vendors we purchased lodging, ski rentals, lift tickets, etc from adjust their policies so we can get full refunds for everything.

Unlike when we first mentioned this as a possibility on Thursday, there were no tears from the girls. They’re figuring out what is going on and how serious everything is. They are definitely still disappointed – we all are – but realize it is for the best. Although when I told them that the NCAA tournament had been cancelled, they all snapped their heads to attention to see if that made me cry. It did on the inside.

Corona Chronicles

And then life got even crazier…

I suppose this is the second in what will be an on-going series sharing my thoughts and observations on the most insane era of my lifetime.

I’ll work a little out of order to get caught up.

First, my girls are all out of school. Cathedral was scheduled to be off today for the St. Patrick’s Day parade.[1] The parade was cancelled so it’s just a day off for high schoolers. They were told at the end of the day yesterday that school was closing and all activities would be cancelled until at least April 14. They will begin an eLearning schedule on Monday and will be expected to be online to “meet” with their classes during normal school hours. M was sad that she won’t get a chance to play tennis, but was sadder for all the seniors who are missing out on their final seasons of spring sports. She said there were a lot of tears from seniors and their coaches as campus shut down.

A few hours later all Marion County public schools were ordered closed beginning today. The archdioceses quickly followed and St. P’s has suspended classes until April 6 at the earliest. I took C and L into school this morning to get all their books, check out C’s iPad, and grad a few assignments from their teachers. They also begin eLearning Monday.

As with everything else that has happened over the past three days, this was not a surprise. But for it to actually happen is absolutely surreal. As we walked through school today parents were all giving each other looks like “Can you believe this is happening?”

Thursdays are a meeting day for S, and she spent literally all of yesterday on the phone, bouncing from one conference call to the next as her health system raced to get policies and contingencies in place. It was a very stressful day for her.

She had been adamant as late as Wednesday that we were still going on spring break. But as the country shuts down that seems less realistic. Her employer is encouraging physicians to cancel plans so they don’t get exposed and put into quarantine in another state/country and not be able to see patients. They can get exposed/quarantined just as easily here but I guess they would prefer it happen closer to home. One of the girls cried when we told them spring break was in jeopardy.

With the girls home and S and I agreeing we should do our best to avoid eating out for awhile, I decided to rush out to the grocery store first thing this morning to make sure we could get through the weekend. I was not the only person with this idea. At 8:30 AM it was the busiest I’ve ever seen my grocery store outside the holiday rushes. The lady who rang me up said the place was a madhouse when they opened at 6:00. The store reflected that: there was almost no lunch meat or cheese, the fresh fruits and vegetables were well picked over. It was strange, though. For every section that was wiped out, there would be another section that had plenty to choose from. We normally drink 1% milk, and it was completely gone. The whole milk was getting scarce. But the skim section was completely full. Good luck finding a frozen pizza.

I saw a lot of people doing what I was doing, securing food for a few days and maybe throwing a little extra in. I grabbed a few extras on proteins that were on sale to freeze. But there were some folks who were panic shopping. One couple had two carts jammed full of food. And I did see one man with a cart that was full of toilet paper, which I found both humorous and sad.

It took me about 15 minutes to get through the line to pay. People were being polite and calm. It could have been a far worse experience.

There’s no evidence that the food supply chain is in any danger. You can never know for sure what is going to happen, but I’m confident while grocery trips may be a little more stressful for awhile, none of us should worry about losing access to food.

Onto sports.

Again, we knew it was coming, but when the NCAA tournament got scrapped I got a little emotional. Some of that was personal and stupid: I felt cheated that this KU team doesn’t get to see what their tournament fortunes held. This was going to be the third, maybe fourth time in my life that KU went into the tournament as the betting favorite.[2] Those teams all came up short. Would this team have been different? I feel worst for Udoka Azubuike, who stayed healthy all season and now doesn’t get to go out on his terms. I’m sad we will likely not see Devon Dotson play for KU again.

But there was also plenty of macro-level sadness. The NCAA tournament, for as often as it floors me, is my favorite event in all of sports. There is nothing like watching basketball all day with that hint of spring in the air. There is nothing like your favorite team making a run over three weeks. And now it’s all gone.

I hoped the NCAA could find a way to simply postpone the tournament and play it later, but I understand why that was an unrealistic hope. Forget all the logistics of gaining access to arenas, blocks of hotel rooms, etc. We don’t know when it will be safe to have large groups traveling across the country again. Even if we knew they could play the tournament in three weeks, how do teams get back in game shape without playing any games?

It’s for the best, even if I hate it. I had this fear that if they continued with empty arenas, important players would start getting sick and that would ruin the tournament, likely forcing a cancellation after games had begun. Or what if they made it to the Final Four and suddenly half of one team was symptomatic and locked down?

Every other sport shutting down is just an extra kick in the nads. I guess we’ll all be streaming a lot of TV for awhile. I made a run to the library today to grab an extra stack of books. Just as I was parking I got an email from the library saying all events it hosted were cancelled. It would not surprise me if most libraries either close or begin limiting their hours soon, thus my trip.

And so begins the strangest chapter in world history of our lives. I think we’ve jumped past 9/11. The entire world is shutting down. All the evidence is that this will pass in weeks, maybe months, and the massive majority of us will emerge unscathed. If it keeps our hospitals open, our healthcare workers functioning, and reduces infections and deaths, it will all be worth it.


  1. I know, right?  ↩
    1. 2010, and maybe 1986. The 2016 team was the #1 overall seed but that was in a year when there was a big group of good teams at the top. They were just the top team that had lost the least recently to nab the #1 seed.

Friday Vid

“Don’t Dream It’s Over” – Crowded House
This song has been going through my mind the last 36 hours or so. Granted, it’s always in my head since it is my favorite song ever. But I keep thinking of how it was used in the 1994 adaptation of The Stand. I don’t think we’re getting anywhere near what Captain Trips did to Stephen King’s mythical, late 70s US, but there is certainly madness about. More about the madness later. Enjoy this, from Crowded House’s farewell concert in 1996.

A Wild-Ass Day

Below are some collected thoughts on what is going on with COVID–19. I’m not going to promise they are coherent or all that intelligent. I’m trying to get them into text and online quickly, so I may contradict myself or miss some glaring flaws in logic. My apologies if it goes off the rails anywhere.


Wednesday was the craziest damn day I can remember since, perhaps, September 11, 2001. While the causes and immediate effects of each day were dramatically different, both are ones that will be seared into my memory.

Yesterday it seemed like each refresh of a news page or check of Twitter brought about some new story about COVID–19 that made me say “WOW!” and immediately share it with others.

There was the morning official declaration of a global pandemic by the WHO.

There was the news that the Congressional doctor warned staffers to expect over 100 million Americans to contract the virus.

There was news that the White House was locking down all COVID-related briefings.

That was before lunch.

When I picked up the girls from school M told me CHS had begun preparing students for classes to be postponed without really saying that was a possibility. They were downloading apps that would assist in eLearning, getting kids who need food assistance signed up for food delivery, and otherwise gently nudging kids so they would be ready for a change in school access.

The girls and I had a long conversation on our ride home about what was going on. They had some slightly crazy thoughts, but for the most part were on the right track. We’ve had several discussions about COVID in recent days and I did my best to reiterate what we’ve been saying: we are unlikely to face any life-threatening complications from COVID. However, we are almost certain to come into contact with the virus, if we haven’t already, and could face a range of uncomfortable complications from that contact. If their schools get closed it was more about keeping people like their grandparents and newborn cousins from getting sick than about our health.

In the afternoon and evening came two more huge waves of news.

The Big 12 and other conferences announced they would lock down their basketball tournaments beginning today.

The Ivy League cancelled all spring sports.

Two private high schools on our side of town announced they were closing until mid-April (These are super expensive, non-religious schools, so I’m guessing they have multiple week spring breaks so families can go to Geneva or Nepal or wherever, so this halt likely only knocks out a couple weeks of class).

The NCAA first announced that they were recommending all sports be played without fans in attendance. Moments later its president announced that he was locking out the public from the men’s and women’s basketball tournaments.

That was the first “Oh shit, this is getting real!” moment of the day. But not the last.

Later in the evening I was making a final run through Twitter before I settled into a book when the NBA decided to go crazy. First, the game between the Jazz and Thunder had been abruptly cancelled seconds before it started. Then word that Jazz center Rudy Gobert had tested positive. Finally the biggest bombshell of the day: the NBA was suspending the season. I flipped over to watch the surreal fourth quarter of the Nuggets-Mavericks game, what would be the last NBA game played for awhile.

In the midst of this, the president was speaking and not helping matters much. Nebraska coach Fred Hoiberg was seen to be visibly ill on the bench in his Big 10 tournament game downtown.[1] And Tom Hanks and Rita Wilson announced they had tested positive.

Just before I went to bed at 11:30 Scott Van Pelt and Sean Farnham were speculating on ESPN that we may have seen the last college basketball games of the year. Which, HOLY SHIT!!!

I went to bed but struggled to relax and fall asleep after several hours of getting buzzed by breaking news and frantic texting.

What to make of all this?

Before yesterday I was firmly in the camp of “we should be vigilant but not overreact.” I thought people panic purchasing groceries and cleaning supplies were lunatics, causing more harm than good.

While that is still my general line of thinking, there was one other thing that came out yesterday that adjusted my thinking. This concept of “flattening the curve” resonated with me. The overwhelming majority of Americans either will not get sick, or will not face anything close to life-threatening illness. The biggest issue, though, is if too many people who do get dangerously sick do it at the same time and flood hospitals beyond their capacity. If we all take steps to slow the virus’ spread, we can stretch out the rate at which the sickest people hit the healthcare system, allowing it room to care for them.


Not that I wasn’t being safe, or teaching my girls to be safe, before. But now I’m a little more diligent about it. And shutting down public gatherings makes more sense. A little inconvenience for us all can make this crisis much more manageable while giving those at the most risk a better chance of getting access to care.

In two or three months we might look back and think it was insane to play games in front of empty seats or suspend the NBA season, close down schools, etc. But if that allows the healthcare system to cope with a flood of severely sick people and slows the spread of the virus, it will be worth it.

Several people have asked me “What does S think about all this?” She’s a pretty calm, rational person. She has remained so throughout this. She’s not cancelling our spring break plans – yet – or making any other dramatic changes to our lives. I figure as long as she is chill, I should remain the same.

It was interesting to sit next to her during a conference call this morning and listen in on some of the steps her employer is taking to plan for the inevitable. I should not/can not share specifics, but I will say they are talking through all scenarios and trying to come up with the best plan to keep the most people as possible healthy while treating those who are sick. There were some hard questions asked, and the response was always “We have a plan for that.” Hopefully it is the right plan. I would imagine most major healthcare systems around the country are having the same conversations with similar conclusions.

As if the times we are living in weren’t crazy enough, this drops on us. I remain optimistic that we will get through this. As a society, it will require some difficult decisions and adjustments, hopefully only for the short term. And hopefully things will slow down a little today so we can catch our breath.


  1. Fortunately Fred just has influenza A.  ↩

Reader’s Notebook, 3/11/20

An Honorable Man – Paul Vidich
I’m on a bit of a Cold War kick right now; I believe reading about Chernobyl kicked it off. This is the first of several Cold War espionage thrillers I’m working my way through.

It takes place in Washington 1953, in the midst of the Korean War and as the McCarthy hearings are getting ramped up. George Mueller is a CIA agent who is thoroughly burnt out. The idealism that came with serving during and immediately after World War II has faded. His son lives with his ex-wife in her native Austria. He sees Washington politics creeping in on the mission of the CIA, a mission he’s not sure he believes in anymore to begin with.

On this background Mueller is tasked with rooting out a double agent that is feeding information about the CIA’s most sensitive operations to the Soviets. There are strong personal connections to his investigation, and even he is under scrutiny because of his background.

This feels like a very old-school spy novel. It has a darkness that feels suited more for a noir crime novel than a spy tale. There is a sense of resignation throughout; these are not glamorous, James Bond scenarios. They are worn-down, cynical men just trying to hang on. Combined with a pretty shocking ending, we are left with a first-rate entry into the modern espionage canon.


The Rumble in the Jungle – Lewis A. Erenberg
I’ve been seeing this book on the New Book shelf at the library for months. I finally broke down and read it.

It is an accounting of the 1974 heavyweight title bout between champion George Foreman and former champ Muhammad Ali held in Kinshasa, Zaire.

Erenberg spends the first quarter of the book setting up how Foreman and Ali arrived at the fight via very different paths. Ali, of course, was arguably the most famous man in the world. A powerful symbol for the political left, he had shed his birth name, joined the Nation of Islam, defied the draft, and paid for it by losing his title and countless millions of dollars in earnings and endorsements. Foreman, on the other hand, embraced what America stood for. Despite campaigning for Hubert Humphrey in 1968, he was viewed as an advocate for the conservative, “Silent Majority” that Richard Nixon spoke of. In fact, Foreman was so closely identified with the traditional elements of American society that many Africans assumed that he was white until they saw him.

Beyond that, Erenberg lays out how the fight came to be scheduled for Zaire, the efforts the government of Mobutu Sese Seko went to build the infrastructure to host the fight, how changes in technology and the undeniable power of Don King made holding a fight in Africa possible, and the huge dramas that led up to the fight.

The summary of the fight itself is rather brief, with more time spent on examining what happened to both Ali and Foreman after Ali reclaimed his title and how they each reinvented themselves in the 1990s.

I knew a fair amount about the fight, but I found this to be an informative read.


Red to Black – Alex Dryden
Sometimes books that tie fictional characters and plot closely to current events lose something in that exchange. I think this is a perfect example of a book that suffers from that pitfall.

Dryden’s novel takes place in the early-to-mid 2000s. The main characters are Finn, a British MI6 agent based in Moscow, and Anna, the Russian SVR agent who is charged with keeping tabs on him. The tricky part is they have fallen in love. Like serious love, not just having an affair to attempt to gain an intelligence advantage. Or at least that’s the way their relationship is presented.

Over several years Finn begins investigating a series of shell companies that are based in Switzerland and Luxembourg. He believes them to be a front for allies of Vladimir Putin to funnel massive amounts of money out of Russia into the west. Anna, who is suspicious of Putin, joins him in his investigation. She is also tasked, by her SVR superiors, with rooting out the mysterious “Mikhail,” a high-ranking member of Putin’s inner circle who appears to be feeding Finn information. She is forced to choose between her love for Finn and hopes for a more democratic Russia versus desire to protect her family.

Intertwined in this is a pretty deep dive on how Putin emerged from the collapse of the Soviet Union and the chaos of the early 90s to take over Russia so completely. We see how he, and other former KGB officials, insulated themselves and their interests as the USSR fell apart. How the co-opted the oligarchs who dominated Russia in its early days of democracy. And how they have crushed all dissent, turning New Russia into a more efficient and capitalistic version of the former Soviet state.

That’s where the problems come in. Because Dryden shares so much detail about the Putin regime, the book had long stretches that were dry and felt more like non-fiction than fiction. Those interludes let the air out of any drama he was building in the portion of the narrative that was focused on Finn and Anna.

This book had the potential to be an A+ modern thriller, and one that was incredibly timely given the current state of the world. But he just missed getting that balance between history and fiction right, and the book ends up being more of a B+.


The Innocent – Ian McEwan
My final Cold War spy thriller of the moment was a surprise. What began as a traditional spy novel morphed into something much different.

Leonard is a British postal service employee dispatched to Berlin in 1955 to aid in a top-secret project. The British and Americans are tunneling under the Soviet sector of Berlin – the city was divided but not-yet walled – and tapping into their communications lines. Almost as quickly as Leonard is thrust into this important project, he meets an older, divorced German woman, Maria, who becomes the first lover of his life. Their relationship is intense and seems to be on solid footing despite one notable slip up by Leonard. As he approaches a year in Berlin, he proposes, she accepts, and they gather with friends to celebrate the pending nuptials.

From here, things spin out crazily. Maria’s ex husband sneaks into her apartment, there is a confrontation between the three, and the ex is killed. What follows is one of the most difficult sections to read that I’ve come across in a long time, as Leonard and Maria have to take extraordinary steps to ensure the death does not become public.

This resolution puts a severe strain on their relationship just as the Soviets discover the tunneling project and Leonard is called back to London. Despite their engagement, when he leaves both he and Maria know this is their end.

The book closes with a lovely coda, told from 1987. Leonard has carved out a successful career in the UK, became a husband and father, and decides to return to West Berlin for the first time since he left in 1956. He is dazzled by the changes and struggles to find the places where he worked and lived 30 years earlier. He carries with him a letter from Maria, sent from the her home in Iowa where she had fled with an American soldier in the late ‘50s. Through it we learn how her life as unwound and that there is an opportunity for Leonard to reconnect with her.

This is a really good book. Then again, McEwan does not write bad books. What I found most interesting, though, and was even a bit distracted by, was the date which McEwan signed it as finished in his closing note: September 1989. The coda references the Wall and its inevitable fall, when the two sides of Berlin would again be joined. The political scientist in me couldn’t help but obsess a little over how the Berlin Wall did fall less than two months after McEwan completed the book.

Another angle of the book that I found fascinating was how devastated Berlin still was in 1955. It was full of rubble and destruction from a war that was ten years in the past. That got me watching some of those Berlin 1945 videos on YouTube. Hey, the Germans had it coming. But those videos are haunting. To know the city had not rebuilt that much by 1955 kind of blew my mind.

KU: Champs Again


About a month ago, my KU buddies I text with daily and I had a lengthy exchange fearing what was ahead of us. The conversation went something like, “I’m not sure if we can win the Big 12, but we need Baylor to lose to someone so they don’t go 18–0.”

At that point the Bears were rolling. They had waxed Tech in Lubbock and KU in Lawrence and, a close game here or there excepted, seemed like no one was going to touch them. In one of my KU posts I wrote how, unlike teams in the past who had a lead on KU, Baylor did not look like a team that was going get tripped up and help KU.

I was obviously mega wrong.

Baylor lost three of their last four while KU is on a 16-game winning streak. And, once again, the Jayhawks are the Big 12 champs.

Each year in the 14-year run I think I found someway to say that year’s title was the most satisfying. That’s an easy exercise this year. Between the NCAA stuff, losing that early game to Baylor, BU looking so tough, the Brawl, and some injury scares, for this team to close so strong and take back what appeared to be Baylor’s is super satisfying.

It is also setting KU fans up for yet another March rollercoaster of irrational emotions. Over the past two weeks I’ve swung wildly between “KU is by far the best team in the country” to “Oh God, we’re going to lose to Houston/Arizona/LSU in the round of 32 because we can’t shoot.”

It’s dumb to have any negative emotions at this point since we have no idea who KU is going to have to play. And with everything negative that has been wrapped into this season/what lies beyond this season, I’m going to try to focus on the positives.

It has been so much fun to watch this year’s big three. Devon Dotson was erratic the first two months of the season, fueling speculation he was worried more about impressing NBA scouts than helping his team win. Whether he did reset his mindset or just settle into his role a little more, the dude has been nearly unstoppable in Big 12 play. He has improved his defense. He’s become a better passer. And he is absolutely deadly if you give him even the slightest angle to get to the basket. He’s become the best finishing guard I’ve ever seen play at KU, surpassing Frank Mason III.

Marcus Garrett has been just a joy to watch as he does 1000 little things every night to make the team better. In any tight game, there he is asserting himself to make the plays that change the course of the contest. The four steals in seven possessions that flipped the entire season against West Virginia. His block on the final possession of the first Texas Tech game. His driving layup this past Saturday against Tech. If KU is closing out a game, he is always in the middle of it. The defensive player of the year who also led the conference in assists, yet somehow only made the third team all conference squad in the coaches’ vote.[1] I’m hoping he goes 1997 Paul Pierce on the Big 12 tournament to show the coaches who did not vote for him how good he is. I think his personality means he will likely just keep doing what he’s done all year and let his team’s results speak for him.

And Udoka Azubuike, who, when healthy, has always been nigh un-guardable in the low post. But he took his game to another level this year. Especially since that first game against Tech, when he pouted and snapped at refs during the game and was benched for the next game, he has been a freaking machine. He’s rebounded better than he’s ever rebounded. Played fantastic defense, always better in the closing moments of games. He’s even making some free throws. All while dunking everything he can.

Those three alone give you a hell of a team. The best, most consistent team in the country because they get to the rim and finish so often, which is enough to balance what is a pretty poor outside shooting team. The inside offense is so good KU doesn’t even look to shoot from outside much. There are moments in every game when the offense bogs down for a bit and I think, “Man, what if they had Svi or Malik Newman or even peak LaGerald Vick to make people pay for packing it inside?” But it never matters. You might take Dok away, but then Dotson and Garrett and Ochai Agbaji get layups. You might take away Dotson’s lanes, but then you leave a defender on an island against Dok, waiting to get dunked on.

If KU runs through the Big 12 tournament and wins three games, they will enter the NCAA tournament as a huge favorite. Even if they lose a game, even if it is to Baylor for a second time, they will still likely be the #1 overall seed and betting favorite.

The NCAA tournament is full of nightmare scenarios, from twisted ankles to early foul trouble to not taking an opponent seriously to a team that never shoots well hitting 75% of their 3’s in the first half to a terrible call in crunch time. I’m doing my best not to worry about all that yet, and enjoy how this team has been so resilient throughout the season, hoping that resiliency can get them through whatever the NCAAs throw at them.

Speaking of the NCAA, KU issued its response to the NCAA charges last week. I did not read the entire, 300+ page document, but relied on some smarter, more devoted people than I am to do so and share their thoughts.

Since the NCAA response isn’t due for a couple months, and there will be more back-and-forth after that, I’m putting off spending too much mental effort into forming an opinion on the KU response or where the case is headed. There will be plenty of time for that in April and May. For now I want to stay on that March rollercoaster, rolling between anticipation of a special finish for a fun team and fearing another devastating tourney burn out.


  1. Seriously, the first team should have been all KU and Baylor players this year.  ↩
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